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[wildicycomet]

I'm just so depressed and angry right now.

I'm stressed out over fucking exams and projects and crap.

I freaked myself out over it on Thursday and I started sobbing in AP Computer science and could not stop for two periods after that.

Then I get home and get a stupid message from one of my friends and so I tell them to shut the fuck up, because 1) I completely disagree with what they said, 2) I think they're being hypocritical over it, 3) I wanted to just get online and forget about my bad day and talk, but they decided to bring up something idiotic, and 4) I just don't care anymore.

So today we had yearbook day and I spent the entire day alone because I didn't want to be around this person or I was liable to start screaming at them. I'm not exaggerating either. This in turn made me cry more, making several teachers very concerned. I hate concerned teachers. They irritate me to no end because I KNOW they are trying to be nice, but it just comes out awkward in the end of the entire situation.

So whatever, I'm done with it. I'm not fucking doing anything besides schoolwork until the end of the year.

I guess it hurts when someone says something hurtful and they don't even know. Nor will they ever.

AND I HATE FUCKING WRITING EMO JOURNALS, ARGH.

Comments

[oxis.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I upset you but I don't think I was being hypocritical about it. I was just asking,Laura. I didn't mean it to upset you and how was I suppose to know you had a horrible day? You never tell me these things anymore.
But seriously,I wasn't trying to make you angry and I wanted your input. God,for all I know it's a joke between you two but obviously you think I'm too idiotic to understand anything lately.
I'm sorry for asking out of curiosity. It kind of hurts me that you told me to shut the fuck up because I wouldn't ask this to hurt your feelings. Damnnit Laura,I knew you longer than her so I'm sorry I'm not as connected as I used to be with you!
I just wanted to know, is all. You could've told me that you disagreed and all that crap and everything would've been fine.

[wildicycomet.livejournal.com]

I call you hypocritical because you joke around with Ashley and her blonde moments all the time. Not only that, but you call some of my friends, particularly one of them, stupid behind their backs all the time.

And the reason you didn't know I had had a horrible day is because you didn't ask. You NEVER ask how my day has gone, I always have to start the conversation, and if I was trying to get away from the terrible day and forget about it, why would I offer up the information?

And why would you think you're too idiotic to understand anything? I'm sorry, but WHY make this about that? It's so off-topic from the original argument.

I kinda DID disagree with you, and yet it isn't fine.

Anyway, I'm posting this now because I really don't care what happens from now on. I see that you deleted me from your friends list so I assume that we're not going try to make amends.